Wow, I looked at the date on my last post - was it really June 2? I guess I've been gone quite a while. There's too much to fill in but suffice to say, it's been a rough couple of months, with some wonderful moments too, but mostly, ugh. Hard.
I love my boy like I've never loved anyone, but he's been a bit of a high maintainence baby. It's not his fault, he has reflux which makes him uncomfortable 75% of the time (it seems), doesn't like to be put on his back or his tummy, can't be put down for 30 minutes after eating and really just wants to be carried around everywhere. I know I had bad heartburn during pregnancy and was very uncomfortable most of the time, so I can only imagine what it's like for a little kiddo who doesn't know what's going on, just that sometimes it hurts to even eat. :( Sleeping? Fah-get about it. He would be up 4-5 times a night, sometimes screaming until he threw up milk that had been in his tummy from the last feed (sorry, gross I know).
So for a while there, I was just to exhausted to do much or go anywhere. I was afraid to go anywhere because Sam would be so fussy & tired during the day. I didn't really clean my house, didn't take showers often enough and just felt like a huge loser. I know this could be considered whining...after all I only have one child and he's not even really 'sick' so how hard can it be? I guess for me, hard! It probably doesn't look that way, since I do happen to get lots of pictures when Sammy is smiling. His smile is the best thing in the world.
The past week really has not been so bad though. Here's what I'm thankful for:
- A sleeping wedge that we got last week, that makes sure Sam's in a comfortable/upright position at night. He (and I) are sleeping MUCH better now (so far... the last 5 nights anyhow).
- The fact that my baby is still gaining weight, smiling and is healthy.
- The fact that most babies outgrow reflux between 6-9 months. Hallelujah!
- The help and support from my family and friends, mostly my mom. She is an angel.
- The fact that I'm going back to work next week. Ok, not really excited about that, but thankful that I have a job and that I only have to work part-time. I think it will be a good break and nice to get out of the house more.
Will update more later, but now I want to go catch up on all my friends' blogs! Sorry I've been MIA. It's not because I don't care. I know there will be ups and downs but I finally feel like I'm coming 'back to life'.
